Last Post.

Hey There, This blog is done with. So many people know about it, and that's too many. It's causing trouble. 






I don't like Joe anymore either. 




Bye.






--Ashley

yeah um....

I miss that, and um, that, and um, that too. 


Meaning, I miss texting Joe every single day.
I miss the amazing nights at Jordan's house when everyone would get along and have so much fun. 
&I miss the most them all together. Texting him, playing spin the bottle with our phones and having my first kiss and that, and everyone getting along and being friends. I miss having a boyfriend (a.k.a. someone to love and be loved back) and I miss the summer.
</3








Ilovedthosetimes.






Butthey'reinthepastnow,andallwehaveisthefuture. 








--Ashley 

wow, that made me love you a little less.

Today when I was walking home Tessa said that in school, Sophie (the one who likes Joe too -shocker-) said to Joe "Go home, no one wants you here," and someone in the class said "Except Ashley," and Tessa said "And Sophie" really quietly or something like that. 


And then the next thing she told me was that Sophie "the flirtiest of the flirts" (as she said) walked up to Joe and said "Did you know that Ashley like, loves you?" and he was like "Yeah?" and walked away... *shrugs* 






But I'm in a bad mood & I won't write about it coz that didn't work out so well last time, so I'm gonna end this one. :P






--Ashley

today was absolutely CONFUSING.

The beginning of the day I was in a good mood, even though I was mad because Nico asked me if I was part Indian because I have a pimple on my forehead where a Bindi would go. 


Today in Algebra he was being rediculous.
He was obviously joking but it was just getting annoying. 


He said "Ashley is on birth control pills" and he said it about other people too but I was getting sick of it I just didn't laugh and gave him a death stare and he said "Hiiii Ashley!" when I death stared at him and then I rolled my eyes and looked away. And then in Geography (the next class after Algebra) we did a review worksheet and Tyler sits next to me and Julia sits in front of him and Nico sat in her seat and he kept asking me why I was mad at him and he said really loud to Tyler "She's my best friend!!!! I don't know why she's mad at me!" and I looked at him hopefully and then once he looked at me I looked away and that's when him and Kate were dating and then in Science (the class after Geography) and at the beginning of the class Nico and Kate broke up. Did I mention they went back out? I don't think so... But anyway that concluded Tyler&I's "book". It was about them and their relationship. Then at the end of Science Nico came over and he had two rulers and I had one and I was tapping it on the table and he came over and put his over mine to stop me and he asked me why I was mad at him and I said "Because you were being mean to me the past, like, 3 days." And he said "I know. I was mad at Kate." And I said "So you took it out on me?" and he said "Kinda. Sorry." and I said "Its okay..." and he said "You and Tyler need to actually write that book and I need to read it. Haha" and I laughed and then I sit next to Nick L and Nick asked him "Who broke up with who?" and he raised both his arms and said "Me" and I poked him in the stomach with the ruler and said "Of course, like always." and he... giggled. He didn't laugh, he giggled. Like a little girl in love. 




And I was talking to Helena when Joe passed me in the halls and I looked at him and he sort of looked at me but not really... 


And then at the end of the day when I put my bag at Tessa's locker he looked at me again. And I texted him last night and I pretended it was on accident and said "Sorry wrong person we can still talk if you want." and he never texted so I guess we're done for a while. (Our friendship.)





My status on AIM (yes I still go on AIM :D) right now is "Grow up, all of you." 


And its for Vanessa, who needs to get over her anger and hatred and everything and be friends with everyone again. 


Nico, who needs to stop acting cool around his friends and be himself. And me be his real best friend. And him actually talk to me. And be nice too. And stick to one girl. Not 17.


Joe, grow up. In general. You flirt with girls because its "The age" but its not "The age" to go out with someone. I know you like someone, and a bunch of people think its me. *shrugs* Just ask someone out. -I'd appreciate it being me but that's just... me...-


Aleia, stop liking the people I like. I used to like Nico, then you did. You find out I like Joe, and now you like him. You can't dictate the guys in our grade, or anyone else. Get over it. No offence, but the people you like, DON'T LIKE YOU BACK. MOVE ON. 




And to everyone else, like I said, just in general, GROW. UP. 








--Ashley

he might think i'm ignoring him... :/

Hey guys. :/


At the end of the day at school I drop my backpack at Tessa's locker because I walk home with her and I change in the bathroom (also near her locker) into different clothes to walk home in. She wasn't at her locker yet, and Sophie was at her's. Joe's locker is next to Sophie's. (Lucky her.) I said "Soph," and she said "Yeah?" and then Joe looked right at me and smiled and opened his mouth to say something and I looked away and said "Do you know where Tessa is?" and then I saw Tessa and walked away. So he might be kinda wondering about that, yanno?

But it wasn't only what happened then that he would wonder about. 


I was texting him the other night and we were talking about how I liked him and we're still friends yet when he found out Kailey and Stephanie liked him he wasn't friends with them anymore and I said "That's why I don't look at you in the halls. I don't wanna look obsessive (which I'm not don't worry)." and he said "You can look at me Idc and you can say hi Idc" and I said "Oh okay." and ever since then we both looked at each other and smiled and today I was talking to Helena and I wasn't looking his way and he walked past me really fast and I felt bad because I went to look at him because I knew he was coming and when I looked he was just walking past me and I felt so bad because he didn't look happy. That's another reason why. And when I said "Oh hey Tess, I'll be right back." he looked at me and followed me with his eyes until I disappeared into the bathroom. 


And I normally text him after school like at like 4 but I didn't today and he probably thinks I'm ignoring him. :/ 






--Ashley

i don't know what to say.

Last night, Joe did text me. For like 20 minutes though. 

He asked me what I was doing tonight after school. 

I don't know... still...

He is walking.

One day in April (http://letyourimaginationrunfreeasthewind42.blogspot.com/2011/04/i-have-proof-d.html) Nico and Joe came to my house. I was walking to my house alone after I dropped Tessa off at her house, so I decided to IMAGINE. :D 

This was it:

They were walking up the street (where there is a "T" shape in the road and they will be coming up the one street where you can't go straight just turn) and I'd be walking past the part they were walking up and I would turn my head to see who it was because I saw some people and I start to walk faster because I knew who it was and then they started to run and I turned the corner and once I was opening my gate they turned the corner and all yelled "STOP ASHLEY!" and I stopped and turned to them all and they ran to me and all started to talk to me and were outside of my house for like an hour and they said "invite one of your friends and you can come with us!" and I said "Tessa is going to Penn State tonight" and they said "Anyone else?" and I said "Not that I can think of" then they said "Wanna come anyway?" and I said "No thanks. I don't wanna ruin your fun" and then they said "You won't" and I said "Well, thanks, but no thanks. I'll stay home." And then they stayed for a little while after then left hesitantly. 

That was my imagination, no, it didn't happen. If it did I'd be pretty dang happy!

I love Joee<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

--Ashley

he's so rude.

Joe is being kind of ignorant.

He texted me (and a bunch of other people) "Any1 wanna talk 2 me" and I said "sure why not" and he never answered me. But he answered everyone else. But I was in the shower when he texted so it took me a couple of minutes to answer and that's why he didn't answer probably. But that bothers me so much when people do that.

Today in school we passed each other like 7 times and he looked at me every time but I didn't look at him once (I saw that he looked at me from the corner of my eye) but I looked at him when we were kind of far away from each other and one or two times he was looking at me from afar but when we got right near each other I looked away. And then every day after school I change out of my uniform and into more comfy clothes to walk home in, and I put my book bag at Tessa's locker to change in the bathroom and Joe's locker is near hers and when I walked over I said "Hi" to Tessa and when I said that he said something to me that I didn't understand and then I went into the bathroom&when I came out he was gone.



Still not answering my texts (20 mins).... ):<




--Ashley

i don't know why i even try.

He doesn't like me, 
I love him. 


He flirts with other girls 24/7,
his excuse is "It's what happens when you get older."


He texts me everyday now again,
he doesn't get where I'm going with anything.




I don't know why I try now, I don't know why I EVER tried.




--Ashley

i should really stop listening to songs that make me cry....

If I Knew Then-Lady Antebellum


<3


but it makes me cry sometimes.




--Ashley

yeah, you left out one small detail.

One day Joe was talking to Julia and she said "I didn't know girls asked you out!" and he got mad and all and then he said "Its not that bad" and then she said "Why?" and he said he wasn't gonna tell her until she told him who she liked. She thought he wouldn't tell her so she said no and he said "I'll tell you I swear if I don't I'll ask out Ashley" and she told him who she liked and he told her but he didn't tell her the full reason so she keeps telling him that he has to ask me out and he said he doesn't and she said yes you do because you didn't tell me the full reason (sorry no quotation marks I'm being lazy) and he kept saying no I don't! and all and if he ever asked me out I'd say "Is this real? Or because you told Julia that you would ask me out and she kept bugging you about it?" and then I'd get my answer and he'd get his.






One big paragraph. o.o






SEEYA!








--Ashley

first football game. (:

Last night was the first football game. (:
I loved it. I guess.

I went with Helena, Stephanie, Vanessa (no we aren't friends), Kayla, Eric, and Nick D. 

Of course there was a ton of kids from our school. (Yes, including Joe. :D)

Joe was with his cousin from the school we were versing, Dom. They were being like gay to each other it was hilarious. When Dom and Joe were talking to Steph and me Joe was holding his arm with one hand and his other shoulder. It was HILAARRRIOUSSS! Haha!

But I was walking past Joe to get to my cousin, Julia, and I knew he was staring at me and I knew I was going to walk DIRECTLY next to him so I blatantly looked down at the ground (even though I always do) and he noticed because I was looking at him before that and RIGHT when I walked past him he YELLLS "AAASSSSSHHHHHLLLLLEEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" as loud as he can and I yelled at him but I didn't yell any words I just yelled and he yelled back and I walked away. And he kept talking to me and looking at me and I was ready to walk up to him and just hug him. Haha I would enjoy that very much. 

I love Joseph Charles G so much and I can't stop loving him or thinking about him he's all I think about 24/7. 

The other night I closed my eyes and I couldn't fall asleep but then he came up in like a vision/dream thing and I fell RIGHT asleep to that.

goodnight<3

--Ashley

2 days down, 178 to go.

Looked at me every time he saw me. HE STARED TOO. 
It was kinda weirddd. But it was okay with me.(:


Okay. I everyday I think about him. And I don't know if its coz I see him in school, but even when I didn't see him I was thinking about himm!!!




I love Joe.
I miss Joe.
He's all I think about.
I love Joe.






--Ashley

of course right when i stop liking him.

Nico and Kate broke up.




--Ashley

its been a year.

It has been a year since I started liking Joe.


I can't believe it.


School started today. He isn't in my class, but whenever we see each other in the halls he looks at me and I try not to look at him but sometimes I do.


He always looks at me. If we're walking past each other. If I'm talking to my friends and he's talking to his and we're kind of near each other, he looks at me.


I think he likes me but I don't know for sure obviously. 


He was texting Tessa today. She bragged. She was like "Hey Ash, Joe texted me! He said "Hi"." and I was like "Thats cool...?" and she was like "Did he text you?" and I said "No, remember he doesn't talk to me anymore." and she was like "Ohkay! Sorry!" 
He was texting Julia today. She bragged. She was like "I'm texting Joe." and I was like "Cool...".


He is texting both my good friends. Of course. Probably to torture me. But he always texts Julia. Like he used to text me, but a little less. And he knew I was with Tessa so he texted her. </3






Goodnight. ):






--Ashley

goodbye nico!

I say this happily/proudly, I don't like Nico anymore.








ILYJ<3



--Ashley

can't stand it.

For Joe, I wish we texted like we used to. I miss you so much.

For Nico, I wish it was me instead of her.

I don't know who I love out of you two. I wish I did. It's too complicated right now.

I can't stand the thought that Nico and Kate are dating. I can't stand the fact that Joe (he must be) is still mad at me. 

I can't stand the fact that when Nico and me are walking next to each other (we're normally next to each other) he walks so close next to me that our arms are only like 2 inches apart from each other, or pressed up against one another's. 

I can't stand the fact that Julia and Joe text each other everyday. I can't stand the fact that she is definitely taking my place. 

That Joe forgets I love him.

That Nico doesn't know I love him.

I wish we could just work it out (Joe and I). But he makes it complicated and doesn't text me. He'll have to one time or another. In school. Even though I'll look my worst in those horrid outfits. 

One day I know he'll forgive me. 

... Just not today.

--Ashley

tonight was confusing.

The first thing is, I don't like that game anymore. 
First I kissed Jordan. Then I tried to kiss Nico. But I couldn't do it. Or maybe he couldn't do it. I think it was him because Kate was there. We tried to kiss three times. First he got my bottom lip&my chin. Then he got just barely the side of my lips and I got the side of his nose. Then he got my chin&I got his nose.

I wasn't happy, and I still am not. Because I saw him&Kate kiss 3 times.


I wish Joe would come one of these nights and we can just KISS. And it would mean something. And we would go out. And I could forget about the fact that Nico&Kate kissed because I would've kissed the boy I truly love and be going out with him. HAHA That would NEVER happen. 

I can but can't even think of the good times tonight... Oh yeah. When Nico wanted my phone for what I forget but he came over and jumped on me and I fell backwards so I was laying down and he got on top of me and stayed like that and kept trying to get my phone and we kind of stared at each other and I thought we were going to kiss but we didn't. </3

I really like Nico but now I know that he doesn't like me back.




</3


--Ashh

not tonight. just today.

We didn't hang out tonight. Just today. 

This is another reason why I think Nico likes me. 
Our texts:
A: i cant go.
N: Y?
A: because my dad is being stupid. i'm really mad.
N: Oh :( pooop
A: i know. ): can we hang out tomorrow??

And then I could go if I got a ride from someone but I couldn't so we didn't hang out. 

He called me a couple minutes ago. He asked why I couldn't come tonight. And why we couldn't tomorrow.
Because Tessa has Dance practice from 1-3. Then he has soccer at 5:30. I have a hair cut at 5:30. After at 6:30 me&Tessa are going to Walmart to finish her school shopping.
He wanted to hang out so bad he was like "that'd be like, an hour right? you can hang out after then!" and I was like "we'll see Nico."











I think he likes me for real this time. I know I like him for real this time.
I forget who Joe even is. Even if Joe "likes" me. 
He doesn't talk to me so!







I<3NICO.





HEMIGHT<3ME.






--Ashh

those dreams when you kissed me... it finally became reality.

No, it wasn't as romantic or sweet as in the dreams.
No, it didn't happen like I thought it would.
Yes, I am definitely happy that we kissed. 
Well, it was more like we bumped heads but he kissed my bottom lip and my chin and I kissed NEAR the side of his nose. Like his top lip&above.
So it was a real kiss. I was his first kiss. Not Helena. Yeah, they "kissed", but she kissed his nose and he missed her face. So not technically. Andy was my first kiss. 



I think Nico likes me. Tessa thinks so, too. 
He walked to my house and both of us alone walked down to Dunkin. 
During Paranormal Activity, me&him were REALLY close together on the couch. Every time there was a scary-ish part he hid behind a pillow with his head on my shoulder. 
Jordan even asked us if we were dating.
Last night he kissed me without playing the game. 
I wanted another kiss from him today.
I wanted to say to him "You didn't have to kiss me." but I didn't. 
I wish when we were walking with each other he just turned to me and kissed me. 
I was temped to turn to him and kiss him.




Later we might hang out again. (:
I hope so. I won't get another kiss, I know that. Because his girlfriend will be there. 
Joe almost came tonight, but he is in Maryland. 
I had enough fun with Nico. We technically cuddled!
Psh no we didn't!


His mom gave me&Jordan a ride home.
Do you know how if you're in the backseat of a car, like behind the passenger seat how you can see (in the side mirror) the person in the passenger? &Vice versa? 
Nico was in the passenger seat. I was right behind him.
I kept looking at him and he was looking at me. 








I<3Nico.
I<?3 Joe.






--Ashh

i can't even begin to describe how amazing tonight was.(:

First off, got my first kiss finally. Even though it was with someone who I didn't think would be my first kiss... Andrew S. He's cute. That's all I'm going to say. It was during Spin The Bottle but we were using Nico's phone.

And my second (I guess it was a kiss?) was with Nico. Tonight Nico was the one I thought would be my first kiss. Not Andy. But Tessa was like "Well Nico is being a chicken and won't kiss Ashley!" and he goes "I'll do it NOW!!" and turned really quickly and KISSED ME. He went so fast and he wasn't good at navigating either so we kind of bumped faces and he kissed my chin and I kissed right next to his nose. Counts enough for me!(:


But then we were walking over to the picnic table to get a drink and he put his arm around my shoulder and my hand was at my side and I went to put my arm around his shoulder but it went around his waist and we were walking together like that. I was happy. Me and him are friends again. Like, good friends. I figured that out when we were walking like that. Because when he put his arm around my shoulder he goes "You're my bestfriend!" and put his head on my shoulder for like 3 seconds. I laughed and said "You too!" and we smiled and looked at each other.




I didn't realize how much I missed him&our friendship.




When we were on the trampoline he goes "Ashley I think Joe likes you. I'm serious too. He always talks about you." and he was leaning on me&my leg. That was around everyone else too! I like him again. But I know I still like Joe more.






GOODNIGHT<33





--Ashh

DREAM # 2

We were at this weird place and it was me and Tessa and we were making this weird thing like an art project or something. When we were finished we walked away. Then we went with Emily Pav, Helena, Nicky, Nico, and Danny and we were in the same building (or another I dunno).. But wherever it was we sat in a circle (cross legged) and put our hands palms up on our knees I don't know why but we did that and I was next to Nico and Tessa and I forget what we were playing or doing but I had to put my hand over Nico's and Tessa's had to go over mine and then we didn't play that game or whatever it was anymore but my one hand stayed on my knee (the one next to Nico) and my other was in my lap holding my phone and we were talking (everyone) to each other and I don't know where Nico's hand was because obviously I wasn't stalking him&where his hand was... But anyway I didn't realize what he was doing with his hand the past like 10 minutes but he was inching it closer to mine and then once I felt his hand just barely touching mine and I looked down at our hands and he moved his hand closer to mine and we both moved our fingers up to hold hands but we both stopped and looked at each other and just stared at each other and he continued moving his fingers and then I did too (because he did) and then we laced fingers. Everyone was looking at us and I forgot that anyone was even there... Then he leaned in so I leaned and then we kissed and then before I could hear anything that everyone would say I just looked at them and they were like *:O* and then I woke up. 

DREAM: NIGHT OF AUGUST 20TH, 2011

DREAM # 1

First of all, Nico and Kate are dating. Second, I like Nico. Third, I’m pretty sure in real life he forgets I exist sometimes. Who was in the dream? Me, Nico, Kate, and Joe were. The whole time we were hanging out, Nico was all over Kate so me and Joe were talking most of the time. I kind of didn’t notice the thousand times he kept smiling my way to see if I would see but when I didn’t the smile would just slowly vanish from his face because he saw me and Joe like that… But hey, that’s sometimes what I would do, so… When we in those little pairs, we were walking somewhere. When we got back to Nico’s house (that’s where we were hanging out), we were all on the couch. Then we all talked to each other. The order on the couch WASN’T 1.Nico 2.Kate 3.Me 4.Joe, it was 1.Kate 2.Nico 3.Me 4.Joe. So I was surrounded by boys…  We didn’t watch a movie we kinda just sat there and talked for a while. After about 45 minutes, that’s when something very different happened. We were all talking and smiling and laughing, when Nico leaned over to whisper something into Kate’s ear. The smile quickly vanished from my face because he could’ve been saying anything to her... I just didn’t expect it to be what it was. Joe, Kate, and I sat there in silence until something else happened, when Kate stopped smiling. She kind of just looked at him and said “Oh, okay…” Then he leaned into me… But he didn’t lean into my ear. He leaned into my face… I kinda just sat there staring into his eyes and then he closed them and kissed me. I was startled but I kissed him back. After that, I looked at his expression which was just ‘I’m going to stare at you until you react’ so I looked at Kate’s because she was behind him, and she was gaping. I turned around to see Joe’s and he was gaping also, but then he closed his mouth and frowned. Then I said to him, “I thought you were dating Kate.” “That’s what I whispered into her ear, “I’m breaking up with you. I’m sorry,” he said to me followed by a smile. I just smiled back.

DREAM: NIGHT OF JUNE 26, 2011

mhkayy.

Joe didn't come yesterday. :P


Today I was with Maddie M, Mackenzie,&Tessa. Maddie had to leave at like 6 and Tessa&Mackenzie stayed. We attempted at making crazy videos. Even though they were crazy, didn't work out.



I just realized what today's date is. August 18th. THE 18TH. Nico was in Florida from the 10th to the 17th.... Me&him need to hang out soon. 

And maybe possibly me&Joe??
I wissh..

Probably won't happen. The only way it happened last time was Joe said to Tessa in a text "wanna chill today" and then he told her to invite a bunch of other people. She invited me. PRETTY MUCH IT. Well we also invited Tommy. And Joe invited Mark&Shawn...










BUT ANYWAY.... TOMMY&TESSA BROKE UP... Well Tessa broke up with him today. Not saying why though. Just don't feel like it.




(Not very) Surprisingly, I miss Joe more than I miss Nico... haha I haven't seen Nico in like, 2 weeks or so and I saw Joe 2 days ago... Thatzafail.


... I dunno what else to say... :P






IMISSJOE.








<3






--Ashh

today was fun(:

Today I was with Tessa, Mackenzie, Maddie M, Helena. It was a lot of fun.(:





That's really it. Sorry!





But tomorrow, me&Julia S are going to chill. Joe might come. If he can he will.
<3








I'll let you know how that goes.(:













--Ashh

today was also GREAT(:

Today, I was with Tessa, Julia, Shawn, Mark D, Tommy C, &Joe.(:


We met Joe at the school, then picked up Tommy (when we walked by his house) and met Mark&Shawn at the park. 


Joe: Tessa come here.
Tessa: Me?
J: No, the other Tessa.
T: Oh, me!
J: Yeah, you.
J: Now what?
T: What?!
J: What what?!
T: What did you want to tell me?
J: No what did YOU want to tell me? 
T: When?
J: Before...
T: Ooohhh, nothing.
J: Tessa.
T: Joe.
J: Just tell me.
T: Ashley, say yes.
A: To what?
T: JUST SAY YES!!!
A: Yes?
T: Why don't you just ask her out?!
J: Why should I ask her out?
T: Because you like her, and she likes you!!!! 
And then Tommy came over so the conversation was over.




I didn't get another hug, but whatever.(:


Oh yeah, he still has the note. I'm almost surprised.(:




<333




--Ashley

we texted again today.

A: um, i need you to tell me the truth.
J: Ye 
A: are we (seriously) friends. or (again), no.
This is the most he's said in a text explaining something like this since I met him.
J: I mean I guess I'm frnds wen me and a girl get into a like fight I don't really care
A: but i thought you were the one mad at me..
J: I was but I wasn't like o me and u rnt frnds
A: i can see that. and i hope you realize i'm still sorry.
J: Y
A: because i was stupid.
J: Y
A: at the plaza. i was stupid to run away. last night, i was nervous, but i realized running away got me nowhere, so i didnt.
J: Koop
A: koop. *confused look*
J: Haha kool
A: oh. haha okay.
A: but-um, another quick question.
J: Ya
A: um, where did you put the note....
J: I hav it
A: yeah, where..
J: I hav it y
A: im jw.
That's all.

I hope we start texting like we used to.


The last night of St. Rocco's was amazing.


We hugged, and this time, he wanted to give me a hug. Well, at least he knew I wanted another hug. (:

At least this time, I hugged him in front of all our friends... under the fireworks..<3
I didn't run.
I gave him the note.
He knows most things now. 
He wanted to talk to me.
We talked.
We hugged. 
We texted.
The only thing I almost wish I did, was say "I love you, Joe." 
Because I do. I wish you would know that.








I miss you, and I hope one day it can just be me and you hanging out. <3






<333


--Ashley

last night at st. rocco's, amazing.

*Sighs* (: 


Well, Friday night I wrote Joe a letter planning to give it to him yesterday, but he didn't go to St. Rocco's. So my new-found cousin Julia gave it to him. He read it away from his friends, thank god. This is what our conversation was after because he said he wanted to talk to me.


J: Hey Ashley
A: Hi 
*both look at fireworks"
A: So you read the note i take it?
J: Yeah. You really wrote it at midnight?
A: Yeah. Haha
J: So do you want a hug?
A: Haha sure
*hugs*


This was our texts from after. He was yelling "YO YO YO! WE'RE ALL FRIENDS HERE!"

J: Were all frnds
A: Really. Seriously.
J: Wo wo were all frnds
A: are we?
J: are we
A: i dunno. you're the one who was mad at me... 
he didnt text back. 
A:*whispers* this is what i mean...
J: sorry
A: its okay. you're with your friends so... text me after i guess.


GOODNIGHT<3




--Ashley

tonight was... um....

Tonight wasn't the best. It rained almost the whole time, and Joe didn't show. I was supposed to give him a note. But I couldn't. Because he wasn't there. *blinks randomly*


I really LOVE Joe and I don't care who knows... Psh yeah right.


The best part was after the festival when we went to Friendly's. It was Tessa, Nick M, Jordan, Kathleen, Marissa, Shawn, Mackenzie, Rachel, and Me.

Hilarious.






But it would've been better if Joe came. I miss him so much</3








--Ashley

i just wish..

I just wish Nico was in this state.
I just wish Joe wasn't mad at me.


--Ashley

first night of st. rocco's.

And it went well.... I think. *laughs*

First off, I went shopping just before that, and got two pretty shirts&a romper.
Tonight I wore the romper, and it looked amazing!


That was a VERRY good thing, because Joe was there.

I can't believe one thing.(:

(No. He didn't ask me out. Um, wow. It's not even about him!)

I never EVER mentioned Quinton before. October 2009, Plane ride to&from Disney. I really liked him then. He's OK looking now. He didn't change that much.
But anyway, I SAW HIM AGAIN! I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE HIM. :O

But good(ish) thing is Joe was jealous... I think... Me and all my friends were by Joe and his friends (because we were talking to Nick M and he was with Joe) and I was talking to Nick and Joe kept looking at me and Amber said that when she said "Lets go ask Ashley if she wants to hang out with Quinton!" because I ran away with Maddy to tell her something and Amber said that he made a face like "Really? HIM?!" like he was jealous.

But if he wanted to hang out with me and if he was jealous for real, then why didn't he? I feel like he's just doing to me what I did to him at the Plaza. Avoiding me. )':


Kill me now.</3




--Ashley

stupid love quotes *scowls*

I hate love quotes... why? Because I can relate to some.



--Ashley

I'm going to keep this simple...

Dear Joe,

      I hope you know how much I miss you.
I hope you know just in general that I miss you.


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--Ashley

american idol winner!

This season's American Idol winner, Scotty McCreery, has an AMAZING song! "I Love You This Big". And I love the song!<3



--Ashley

another song...

Should've Kissed You-Chris Brown.

I had the chance and I almost blew it. But I did it.
 
Hugging that is. Joe.


I wish you would know, Joe.</3








--Ashley