I wanna make you feel wanted.

Okay, so I'm officially over Joe.

For real.

There's this kid I'm talking to, his name is Danny.

Sadly, he's 16 years old... I'm 13. 

He's super nice and funny and I'm still talking to him, like I do every night, despite the fact its a after 12:30. 

We'll be texting for a while after too.

He wanted a hug, so when I saw him at the plaza today, I hugged him. 

Well I told Helena he wanted a hug so she was like "I'll hug him first!" and she walked up and was like "Hey Will" (another kid) and hugged him, "Hey Danny" hugged him, and then I sorta lost who she hugged (if she hugged anyone else) coz I gave Danny a hug. :)

But like, his hugs are literally the best thing ever.

Better than Mark's.

BETTER THAN JOE'S.

And I pinky promise you I'm not even lying. 

I've been wearing my hair up lately a lot.
 
He told me I looked pretty with my hair down and that I should wear it down. 

I wore my hair down today. 

If you're gonna think dirty well you shouldn't because all it means (whipped) is pretty much doing what they tell you to do without questioning it.

So I'm whipped, with the fact that he told me to wear my hair down and I did.

But anywho, back to the hug.

I have never ever had a hug that amazing.

I pinky promise.

I was behind Helena and he looked at me and I looked up at him (DAMN IS HE FUCKING TALL) and kinda just awkwardly held out my arms and smiled up at him and like I mentioned, he's tall, so I was a bit shocked when he went to hug my waist because my arms were around his shoulders/neck so I was like on my tippy toes and he held me so tight and I was so happy.

I pinky promise that made my night. 

Asdhflehifn dude I really want another hug. 

I'm being so serious. I want another hug. I'm like on the verge of tears.. because... his hug was so effing perfect. 

I pinky promise it was perfect.

Last Post.

Hey There, This blog is done with. So many people know about it, and that's too many. It's causing trouble. 






I don't like Joe anymore either. 




Bye.






--Ashley

yeah um....

I miss that, and um, that, and um, that too. 


Meaning, I miss texting Joe every single day.
I miss the amazing nights at Jordan's house when everyone would get along and have so much fun. 
&I miss the most them all together. Texting him, playing spin the bottle with our phones and having my first kiss and that, and everyone getting along and being friends. I miss having a boyfriend (a.k.a. someone to love and be loved back) and I miss the summer.
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Ilovedthosetimes.






Butthey'reinthepastnow,andallwehaveisthefuture. 








--Ashley 

wow, that made me love you a little less.

Today when I was walking home Tessa said that in school, Sophie (the one who likes Joe too -shocker-) said to Joe "Go home, no one wants you here," and someone in the class said "Except Ashley," and Tessa said "And Sophie" really quietly or something like that. 


And then the next thing she told me was that Sophie "the flirtiest of the flirts" (as she said) walked up to Joe and said "Did you know that Ashley like, loves you?" and he was like "Yeah?" and walked away... *shrugs* 






But I'm in a bad mood & I won't write about it coz that didn't work out so well last time, so I'm gonna end this one. :P






--Ashley

today was absolutely CONFUSING.

The beginning of the day I was in a good mood, even though I was mad because Nico asked me if I was part Indian because I have a pimple on my forehead where a Bindi would go. 


Today in Algebra he was being rediculous.
He was obviously joking but it was just getting annoying. 


He said "Ashley is on birth control pills" and he said it about other people too but I was getting sick of it I just didn't laugh and gave him a death stare and he said "Hiiii Ashley!" when I death stared at him and then I rolled my eyes and looked away. And then in Geography (the next class after Algebra) we did a review worksheet and Tyler sits next to me and Julia sits in front of him and Nico sat in her seat and he kept asking me why I was mad at him and he said really loud to Tyler "She's my best friend!!!! I don't know why she's mad at me!" and I looked at him hopefully and then once he looked at me I looked away and that's when him and Kate were dating and then in Science (the class after Geography) and at the beginning of the class Nico and Kate broke up. Did I mention they went back out? I don't think so... But anyway that concluded Tyler&I's "book". It was about them and their relationship. Then at the end of Science Nico came over and he had two rulers and I had one and I was tapping it on the table and he came over and put his over mine to stop me and he asked me why I was mad at him and I said "Because you were being mean to me the past, like, 3 days." And he said "I know. I was mad at Kate." And I said "So you took it out on me?" and he said "Kinda. Sorry." and I said "Its okay..." and he said "You and Tyler need to actually write that book and I need to read it. Haha" and I laughed and then I sit next to Nick L and Nick asked him "Who broke up with who?" and he raised both his arms and said "Me" and I poked him in the stomach with the ruler and said "Of course, like always." and he... giggled. He didn't laugh, he giggled. Like a little girl in love. 




And I was talking to Helena when Joe passed me in the halls and I looked at him and he sort of looked at me but not really... 


And then at the end of the day when I put my bag at Tessa's locker he looked at me again. And I texted him last night and I pretended it was on accident and said "Sorry wrong person we can still talk if you want." and he never texted so I guess we're done for a while. (Our friendship.)





My status on AIM (yes I still go on AIM :D) right now is "Grow up, all of you." 


And its for Vanessa, who needs to get over her anger and hatred and everything and be friends with everyone again. 


Nico, who needs to stop acting cool around his friends and be himself. And me be his real best friend. And him actually talk to me. And be nice too. And stick to one girl. Not 17.


Joe, grow up. In general. You flirt with girls because its "The age" but its not "The age" to go out with someone. I know you like someone, and a bunch of people think its me. *shrugs* Just ask someone out. -I'd appreciate it being me but that's just... me...-


Aleia, stop liking the people I like. I used to like Nico, then you did. You find out I like Joe, and now you like him. You can't dictate the guys in our grade, or anyone else. Get over it. No offence, but the people you like, DON'T LIKE YOU BACK. MOVE ON. 




And to everyone else, like I said, just in general, GROW. UP. 








--Ashley

he might think i'm ignoring him... :/

Hey guys. :/


At the end of the day at school I drop my backpack at Tessa's locker because I walk home with her and I change in the bathroom (also near her locker) into different clothes to walk home in. She wasn't at her locker yet, and Sophie was at her's. Joe's locker is next to Sophie's. (Lucky her.) I said "Soph," and she said "Yeah?" and then Joe looked right at me and smiled and opened his mouth to say something and I looked away and said "Do you know where Tessa is?" and then I saw Tessa and walked away. So he might be kinda wondering about that, yanno?

But it wasn't only what happened then that he would wonder about. 


I was texting him the other night and we were talking about how I liked him and we're still friends yet when he found out Kailey and Stephanie liked him he wasn't friends with them anymore and I said "That's why I don't look at you in the halls. I don't wanna look obsessive (which I'm not don't worry)." and he said "You can look at me Idc and you can say hi Idc" and I said "Oh okay." and ever since then we both looked at each other and smiled and today I was talking to Helena and I wasn't looking his way and he walked past me really fast and I felt bad because I went to look at him because I knew he was coming and when I looked he was just walking past me and I felt so bad because he didn't look happy. That's another reason why. And when I said "Oh hey Tess, I'll be right back." he looked at me and followed me with his eyes until I disappeared into the bathroom. 


And I normally text him after school like at like 4 but I didn't today and he probably thinks I'm ignoring him. :/ 






--Ashley

i don't know what to say.

Last night, Joe did text me. For like 20 minutes though. 

He asked me what I was doing tonight after school. 

I don't know... still...

He is walking.

One day in April (http://letyourimaginationrunfreeasthewind42.blogspot.com/2011/04/i-have-proof-d.html) Nico and Joe came to my house. I was walking to my house alone after I dropped Tessa off at her house, so I decided to IMAGINE. :D 

This was it:

They were walking up the street (where there is a "T" shape in the road and they will be coming up the one street where you can't go straight just turn) and I'd be walking past the part they were walking up and I would turn my head to see who it was because I saw some people and I start to walk faster because I knew who it was and then they started to run and I turned the corner and once I was opening my gate they turned the corner and all yelled "STOP ASHLEY!" and I stopped and turned to them all and they ran to me and all started to talk to me and were outside of my house for like an hour and they said "invite one of your friends and you can come with us!" and I said "Tessa is going to Penn State tonight" and they said "Anyone else?" and I said "Not that I can think of" then they said "Wanna come anyway?" and I said "No thanks. I don't wanna ruin your fun" and then they said "You won't" and I said "Well, thanks, but no thanks. I'll stay home." And then they stayed for a little while after then left hesitantly. 

That was my imagination, no, it didn't happen. If it did I'd be pretty dang happy!

I love Joee<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

--Ashley