Yesterday, Helena Nicky and I went to The Plaza. I was texting Joe and he said "Whats up" and I said "Going to The Plaza... but you can't go there. :/" and he was like "Maybe I can" and he ended up being able to go. He was with Nicky the whole time and I wanted to hug him and they all told him to hug me so I would be happy but I knew the hug was forced upon and I was said about that. This is what I said to him yesterday night:
"I'm really sorry no matter what you say. I wish I never did anything that I did that was wrong. The best thing was when we hugged. And I know it was pretty much forced upon. I really like you. If we ever hang out again I swear I won't run no matter who or where. I'm so sorry. I really like you."
And today I'm going to say to him:
"When I was running away from you, I was scared&nervous. I just really like you and you're the only thing on my mind right now. And what else is on mind is everything I did wrong last night. When they got you alone I wasn't as scared (even though I knew they were watching from two different directions) because you made me feel better there. When you kept asking "Why are you so scared/nervous?" I didn't tell you because I didn't know why I was. When we hugged, it felt like something rushed through me (may have just been me though)... something warm&... loving? I dunno. You just made me feel much better. But when you yelled "ARE YOU EFFING HAPPY NOW!?" and walked away, I walked away too then cried. If we ever have the "Make Up Day", no matter where or who, I'll stay with you every second if you want. I'll hug you right when you get with me/us. I'll hug you so much I dunno what'll happen. If you had texted me already before this today, then I wouldn't have written this. I didn't think it was this long either... Sorry again."
He's gonna be like "Whoa..." haha.
I love him so much.
--Ashley<3
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Girl This is tessa i feel soo bad abou tht he is a jerk right now!! okay he isnt txting you i think he might be having feelings for you or something and doesnt know and all he feels is hate okay!! I wish guys werent like tht but they are like assses sometimes and a guy has made a cry before bec he liked me and i was dating some one else and he like poured his feeling out to mee and i cry and it was the night be for easter hahahahahha but im like im crying i didnt know you felt like tht and he was like ya i didnt tell anyone and please dont tell anyone sometimes you feel dieing and it sucks welll gtg love you<3333
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